My colleague observed some yellowish-ness in my eyes, which was not very significant, but I decided to go get it checked anyway.

So the staff clinic Dr didn't think it was a problem, but decided to send me for blood test. It turned out that I had elevated bilirubin levels. Not very high, but it was out of the normal range. So she sent for for further tests,and decided to send me to see a specialist-gastroenterologist. But she doesn't think that it will be a significant problem.

Then I took a week to make an appt cos I didn't think it would be any problem. But one of my Dr frens said that it is better to get it checked, cos in this day and age, you never know what your body is capable of contacting diseases.. I guess he was thinking that the possibility of liver cancer/disease is there, considering the fact that my full blood count is normal-which then takes away the posiiblity of blood diseases.

I had some time to think tdy. If my life were to totally change becos of a diagnosis, how will I cope with it? If God could take me away without suffering, that will be the best. But recently, I've learnt that we know God thru sharing in His suffering, and I know of pple who hv gone thru the pain of suffering, and in the process, understanding what the meaning of suffering on this earth is abt.

The appt is this thurs.. i guess i will know after doing more tests?

Meanwhile, this is a process of trusting God, and to not take for granted my health.

I was thinking about the wedding ytd, and it dawned upon me the significance of what it meant, and how the Lord allowed me the privilege of being part of it all.

It has been an amazing year Doris, seeing you grow by leaps and bounds in the Lord. I praise God for your desire to please Him in your actions, your trust in Him for providing for all your needs, and your calmness and your ability to focus on the big picture, not the little things that went wrong during the wedding. What amazes me is how you are so teachable, and eager to be involved in anything that would help you to know God better. On this special day, I esteem you for your braveness in making the marriage vow as you enter a new life with zhaoyi. I pray that the Lord will grant you both blessings as a couple, and many more opportunities to bless others. In times of difficulties, may you look to the Lord, forsake your pride, and love unconditionally because Christ first loved you.

I know it was not easy for the both of you to have made the decision to obey Christ first before others, but praise the Lord that He provided. It brings me tears of joy (literally) to see you both love the Lord not only from your lips, but more importantly, through your actions. Thank you for giving me this privilege to be your bridesmaid, tiring as it was, I thoroughly enjoyed it and am very glad that I could play a part in it.

Doris, life from now will no longer be the same, because you are no longer alone. You must always consider that you are accountable to your husband as he is to you. Trust in the Lord to provide. If the Lord has led you to this day, He will surely grant you the desires of your heart as you seek Him wholeheartedly.

I cannot explain but I am overwhelmed by the joy of being able to witness both of your testimonies, and given the privilege to be part of it.

May you both walk this journey fearlessly hand in hand with Christ, for He supplies all your needs.

Love, June

Oswald Chambers from "My Utmost for His Highest"

"The comradeship of God is made up out of men who know their poverty. He can do nothing with the man who thinks that he is of use to God. 

As Christians, we are not for our own cause at all, we are out for for the cause of God, which can never be our cause. We do not know what God is after, but we have to maintain our relationship with Him whatever happens. We must never allow anything to injure our relationship with God; if it does get injured we must take time and get it put right. 

The main thing about Christianity is not the work that we do, but the relationship we maintain and the atmosphere produced by that relationship. That is all God asks us to look after, and it is the one thing that is being continually assailed".

It's so true that the state of our relationship with Christ affects our relationship with those around us, and the atmosphere that it produces. 
My experience with spending one whole week with God-fearing missionaries was just "heavenly". It gives me hope that in eternity, how wonderful it will be. 
Coming back to the 'world', it feels rather lonely at times, especially when not many understand or feel the same passion for God's purpose. Nevertheless, it has been a blessing, and I have been encouraged to seek the Lord wholeheartedly, as I witness how men and women have sacrificed their lives to respond to the call of God.

Here's a picture representation of the June birthdays!

Thank God for AG, and the craziness that I sometimes wonder..., how can we be 30? Or for some pple, approaching 30! I think God would say that it doesn't matter what age we are, as long as our hearts are right with Him.

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My 4 yr old nephew said this tdy "I hate God!" It really caught me by surprise. Yesterday he asked where is God?
It's amazing that a 4 yr old would be interested/disinterested in God, whom he has never encountered, or so i thought.

I am beginning to believe more and more that the Lord has planted in the hearts of those He has chosen, and that there is nothing on earth, not even the devil's evil schemes that can separate us from the love of God.
May he come to know the saving grace of our Lord Jesus, and the power of His love.

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This yr, I've heard of many sudden deaths, including Gordon from church. 
I just heard that my friend from the US received news that her dad just collapsed and passed away in a matter of hours. Thank God that he is with the Lord now. How I wish everyday that I could be gone just like that, straight into the arms of Jesus! 

I'm sorry to hear that Nanc, it's shocking news, and I really feel for u as I recall the time my grandma whom I used to share a room with also collapsed suddenly and died in a few hrs. Unlike ur dad, she did not know the Lord and I remember having struggled with God's sovereignty and perfect will at that time. I will be praying for u and your family.

Thank God for reminding me, that in the midst of my business, deadlines and work, what matters in life. Many of us don't think about our death until we are confronted with it. 

To make my salvation sure, and to share the good news with all around us- thank God for this reminder.

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I have been asked to conduct a course on how to use Pilates to rehabilitate patients. It's starting next week, 16hrs over 2 weekends. I'm panicking because I'm not v prepared! I have been so tired out, almost missed my bus stop on my way home just now because I was so sound asleep!

On another note, I've been having red eyes, possibly from excessive rubbing due to itchiness! Horrible...

I'm looking forward to the Chinese New Yr break!